decisions being made, sacrifices to be paid. but i will pay them. you can bet me on that.
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i posted this thought as the "thought of the day" once, long ago. i actually think it was the first time i had ever put up a thought of the day. it read as follows: "are you chasing after what you want, or are you running from all that you fear?". and i wanted to further evaluate this thought today.
there was a time in my life when i ran away from my fears. if i was going somewhere, anywhere... it was because i was running away. and i hated it. because if you're running away, you have nowhere to go. a road with no map, a journey with no destination, a life with no meaning.
then something happened to me, something life-changing enough to make a pivotal point in my life. i believe this something to be love. something i had never felt until i met this someone. and i had something to chase after. something to live for. it was a great feeling.
and it is contagious. pretty soon, everything that i've been doing seemed to find a goal. i was doing things for a good reason. i finally had found out that i am moving forward because there's something beyond what i could see. and ambition grew. i gladly moved on.
but relationships have their end. honestly, i was bummed out for a while. but then i realized that i was in a situation i was never put in: i had nothing to run from, and nothing to look forward to. basically, i was inert, unaware of the rapid movements of this chaotic world and stuck in my own. i was motionless. my feet would not take steps forward nor backward.
it was about then, i realized the three people that i cannot do without. there is no need in mentioning their names; that is irrelevant. besides, they should know who they are. and something was buliding inside me. with all their powers combined with mine, i chose to take steps forward.
this story of mine, by all means, is not bad at all. in fact, i do not regret anything that happened, nor wish for anything different. i loved each moment of it, for it has made me stronger and my love has grown stronger. besides, this isn't the ONLY time i realized the importance of moving on; this is just an example.
and in the midst of my journey, i sought for something to chase after. anything, i thought. i soon found out that music had been my soul all along. and for music, i kept going. i soon found something. someone. and now, this is the reason i will chase you until my legs cannot carry me.
thank you, for giving me a reason to look forward to the future.
thought of the day:
to say something without saying anything at all is beautiful. but if Silence cannot speak, how can Love hear?
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